Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Delight yourself in The Lord & he will give you the desires of your heart
One of the first things I want to talk about is the true revelation of dying to self. I cannot, of course, say what is perfectly right or perfectly wrong but I will share what God has shown and done in my own life personally. I was saved as a child 8 years old to be exact, I strayed away from The Lord as a teenager and made several crazy life choices and many mistakes .. Through it all though I know I am now where God intended me to be, with a crazy past, three beautiful children, and a Husband who lives for The Lord. All of that shared to get to this I dedicated my life to God with my husband in June of 2008. We became very involved in church and thought we were doing very good but behind the scenes satan was working to tear us apart but what he seems to forget a lot is Romans 8:28 :) anyway he's just a working and striving to tear everything God had blessed us with including our marriage apart .. Meantime all this warfare brought me to a place where I would call 'the bottom' I knew I couldn't keep going like I was, I was spiritually sick and almost completely turned from God our life bore no fruit and my marriage was falling apart .. One day I was home folding clothes and doing what I usually would and I knew I was done with everything I had made my ' phone calls' and everything to friends and family stating I couldn't take anymore I was leaving.. This is EXACTLY where God needs me to be and satan just thought he was fixing to win.. I ended up after all those calls in my room in my bed on my knees crying out to God begging for help at this point I can honestly say I was at the end of myself ( I'm still being worked on though lol) just at this point I knew there was absolutely NOTHinG in this world I could possibly do to change my circumstances my husband my bitterness towards the situation our finances NOTHinG I knew I needed something more than another day of banging my face on a brick wall with no results I knew that what I needed was my savior, my first love, my portion. It was a long several months to get me and my family to where we are now in our personal relationships and in The Lord but I can honestly now be a living speaking testimony of Romans 8:28 and an example of Gods grace and mercy has definitely been poured on and manifested in our lives.. I have so much to say and so many great testimonies of Gods love towards us and good things he has shown us even through the bad things we have overcame but to start our I just wanted to share this story and one of my favorite scriptures Lamentations 3:21-24 the reason I can still find hope is that I keep this one thing in mind: because of the Lords mercy we were not consumed his compassion never fails and his mercies are new every morning his faithfulness is great my soul can say The Lord is my portion!